i feel like im being treated like JUNK.
like sh-*
like im a waste paper. i was written on and now im being disposed of.
like wth?
ok fine. like WADEVER.
i dun care anymore. just feel like dying. feel like commiting suicuide.
not like this has nvr happened before.
today we had class bbq at palm gardens. that's where mrs koh live. and i was providing the chicken.
and the whole evening to night i was:
-waiting at mrs koh's house for any phone calls,
-down at the bbq pit trying to start fire,
-helping out with the bbq
-finding people to discuss OM
-and packing up and clearing stuff.
bbq right? wat did i eat?
1 chicken wing+1 hotdog+ marshmallows
and some people go there to 白吃白喝。never even help out lorh.
and in the end, i still have to suffer.
lynn told me the day before that sok said we would discuss about OM during the bbq. discuss wat? in the end also the same as before. so wat's the point.
anyway, wenqi said she was in sok's group. then sok said wenqi wasnt. wenqi was like wth. cos wenqi said she asked sok's group whether she can join, then liuyi said wadever. so that meant "anything also can." for wenqi and "NO" for sok. dunno wat's wrong with sok.
so since wenqi and me got no group, we went to find sheila, whose group had on 6 people. and when she asked, they started to discuss whether to take me or wenqi.
and in the end, they said they would take wenqi. which meant i had to go back to sok's group.
BUT.
wenqi wasnt sure so we decided to call sok to the playground (where me, wenqi and sheila's group were.) then when sok came. she immediately said she wanted wenqi.
and she said wenqi was already in their group.
like WTH. she just told wenqi 15mins ago wenqi DEFINITELY wasnt in her group.
wow. sok got mood swings hor. and her mood can swing very fast hor.
then they started fighting over wenqi.
then i was there thinking what they really think wenqi and me were. they were treating us like junk lorh. like they dun want us can just throw away, nevermind one. if want then can always take back.
helloo people! even if we look or talk or act like junk, we are not junk can? what do you think we are lorh. got no respect for us at all. you guys dun even bother wenqi's feelings at that time. so DAMN inconsiderate lorh. i see people so attitude also dun have you so rude lorh.
dunno why nanyang got such people.
then they gave lame excuses for why they wanted wenqi and not me.
"because we more familiar with her."
erms. wenqi never even talk to you can?
like WTH.
so tell me. what's the world coming to?
anyway, in the end, wenqi decided to go to sok's group.
"because sok already very angry."
so i went to sheila's group.
i think those people really very inconsiderate lorh. 受不了他们。so wat lah can.
and sok just because wenqi nvr go her group only so angry.
when she said 15 mins ago that she didnt want wenqi in her group.
she nvr even thought about wenqi's dissapointment for once can? and she expect wenqi to pity her also.
i think wenqi too soft-hearted le.
anyway, that night wenqi talked to me online. she was feeling like REALLY VERY DOWN.
and i think she was crying.
and i was crying with her. ok nvm.
anyway, she said:
"we're PSGL. we're supposed to solve pther people's prob. but we have probs and got to solve them 1st."
i think wat she said was true.
haha. i think wenqi very nice. going to make up to her next time. do project with her more often. ^^
all the above was written yesterday. and MY DAD SHUT DOWN THE COM BEFORE I CAN FINISH IT. nvrmind shall blog about today now.
today got AMC. also got band.
anyway, went to school at 8. tot AMC was at 8 when it was supposed to be at 9.
grrrrr........... GRACE LEONG!!!!
so i wasted 1 hour doing nth at school except sleeping.
then we went for AMC.
then went for early lunch, cos band was from 11- 4 with no breaks at all.
i actually wanted to go kap, then saw choo yi, then walk to bus stop to go kap with her. then at the bus stop we saw jo, then we decided not to go kap and stay in school. so we walked back. lame right?
ok then we went for band. had sectionals. then our section was very very very pathetic. we only had 1 tuba and 2 double bassers. ER......... cos eugenia and jacey not here. so POOR cheryl diedED. then we practiced on our own. played simple gifts, finale, festivo, rhapsody, rosa, nineties.......
percussion were in the band room practicing gershwin and BRAZALLIAN STREET DANCE!!!! AHHHHHH! I LIKE!!!!!!!!
quote from.. uh..... dunno........ :
"how would you commit yourself to band?"
"活做 BAND 的人，死做 BAND 得鬼。"i think that was cool. haha.
anyway, i heard it from jasmine.
oh and ha! we had sectionals from 11- 1.30 cos sec 4s had o levels at 2, and then we went in for full band prac from 1.30 -4. and, some sec 4s came back!!!!! haha! so nice!
and ms chong took us for uh.. rosa, nineties, gershwin, and something else. cant remember...... cos MY SCORES ARE WITH KAIXIN!!!!! she took them to uh..... PHOTOCOPY? ok nvm.
listening to: persis!
thanks to yihuang, now i can listen to persis! i think it's very nice!!!!!! it's the..uh..very mysterious type, which i like!!!! haha! and i think the oboe part is very very very very nice!!!!! and the eupho part. :)
and the percussion solo part. :)))))
reminder to self: read eugenia's post and PRACTICE RAY CHARLES AND GERSWHIN MORE!
kk. gtg read yooj's blog!
['siewying lurves band!']
